life is funny.

Life is funny.  It never ceases to amaze me the way things sort of stack up to create days, weeks, months, years.  Sometimes things affect us in such ways that we can't understand, and we don't know how to feel.  Often times, I love when this happens, because it causes me to really take a comprehensive look at myself.  Occasionally, I think about the choices I have made--or not made--and rarely, I feel regret.  Regret for the things I wish I would have done, regret for the things I should never have done, and regret for the things that I learned nothing from.

Sometimes I wish I would have been there more for a friend.  Sometimes I wish I wouldn't have held on to a friendship that didn't suit me.  Sometimes I wish I had seen situations with more clarity than I did in the heat of the moment.  But I always remember that we cannot change our pasts.  We can only look forward and think about the things we can do to prevent these feelings from happening again.  Write more letters.  Make more phone calls.  Send a friend a card not because it's her birthday, but because it was funny and reminded you of her.  Remember that even when our own lives seem to be so busy, perfect, and squared away, others are drowning in personal crisis, and sometimes all they need is a hand, reaching out to pull them back on to the life boat.  We are not all the center of the universe, no matter how good it feels, in the moment, to feel as though we were.


why i'll never cave in to seeing Avatar

I don't know what it is about James Cameron, but he certainly knows how to make a "hit movie."  From The Terminator movies to Titanic to, now, Avatar... Cameron either a) knows the exact formula for making movie millions, b) only makes movies he knows will be HUGE, or c) ... well, I don't have a C because I think his strategy includes both.  The thing that bugs me about James Cameron, and "blockbusters" in general (think Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen) is that their aim isn't necessarily to extract emotion from their viewers, maintain artistic integrity*, or develop meaningful and timeless plots and/or characterizations.  The goal of a blockbuster is spectacle.  
*I'm not saying Avatar doesn't have artistic integrity, because it most certainly does. I'm saying most other blockbusters do not.

Some would argue that spectacle is where film got its start; people wanted to see what the hell these "motion pictures" were all about.  However, the wonder of the moving picture transformed into some of the best days of the American cinema--the 1930s.  The films that made the money were those that contained good actors, good screenwriting, thoughtful cinematography, and a plot that actually went somewhere (think Casablanca or even The Wizard of Oz).  Don't get me wrong--the movies of the Golden Age of Hollywood had their flaws.  Stereotypes and inequality abound in those movies.  Deus ex machina is a popular mechanism used in many early films (granted, it is still used today, but I digress).  What I'm trying to get at is that good movies don't have to be about spectacle.  Or at least they shouldn't be.  True, there is no harm in seeing a film because it is beautiful (hello, Atonement... I would never have seen that movie based on plot alone... it's just plain depressing... but its cinematography is flawless).  So I wouldn't say my reason for not seeing Avatar is that I think it's probably not pretty--I'm sure it's gorgeous.  In fact, I've heard that the CGI is breathtaking in it.  BUT... I have an issue with the fact that people say Avatar has to be seen in 3D IMAX to get the full effect.  Where is the timelessness in that?  


As a film major, I'm worried about the direction that Hollywood is going in.  I don't want to make 3D films.  I want to make good ol' 35 mm movies that actually have a heart.  Plus, as I get further in my education, the more I'm starting to lean towards cinematography.  What is the point of a cinematographer in a CGI world?  Ugh.  Besides, with "brilliant" CGI films such as Avatar (and Up--although Pixar/Disney 3D films have transferability to 2D viewing), other CGI movies--like Alvin and the Chipmunks-The Squeakuel and G-Force (that movie about the spy gerbils) are being made.  I cringe when I see these trailers.  I know they're kids' movies, but I just can't force myself to see their value.  Since when does making movies that are absolutely horribly written and contain no production value suffice for kids?  The Disney Animation Studios cranked out some excellent films (Sleeping Beauty & Peter Pan to The Princess and the Frog & The Lion King) that were well-written while still being accessible for kids.  And let's not forget the Disney/Pixar films starting from Toy Story... also all well-written and made, but still marketed for and enjoyed by children.

Anyway, my point is that I'm not going to see Avatar not because I hate being a "bandwagon jumper" (although I do.. I have yet to see Napoleon Dynamite and Titanic for that very reason), but because 1) I'm not really interested in science-fiction films-especially ones that last nearly 3 hours.. (save Star Wars: Episodes 4-6), 2) It costs like five extra dollars to see the film for the "full effect" and I'm a poor college student, 3) James Cameron has enough frickin' money, and 4) it breaks my heart that, for a movie to make a lot of money, it has to be a film of spectacle.  It has to be about the computer generation, not the way the lighting, editing, and cinematography purposely further the director's themes that are played out by a well-acted screenplay.  

 So, you can go see Avatar if you want.  But if Avatar wins Best Film at the Academy Awards, I might have to seriously consider changing my major.